I know some people would ask me that. Or maybe they will think that I am crazy or desperate, or just playing around. Maybe they think I am misjudging my feeling because I am moving too fast. I might. I might not. But I said, why not?
He said he would take the risk, and I would want that too. It could worth the risk. And if it does, I don’t want to miss it.
So, apart from such a dark intro, here’s the good news. I am in a relationship again. Feel free to judge me, because I don’t care. I am happy right now.
I found someone who I like, and apparently he likes me too. He said he likes me a lot. He doesn’t make me feel like I was the queen of the world… yet. But he called me his princess. AND most importantly, he treated me like one. I said to him my situation now, and he said he would take the risk and go all the way.
I said something about people who made promises to me. He doesn’t make promises. He just said that he might want to make me gingerbread men sometimes, and when we met, he gave me an army of gingerbread men. He said he wants to see me and he came and see me. I just realised how many people that I knew talk, but never do. They said things they never had the intention to make come true. And when I saw someone who just did what he wanted to do, it just wonderful.
Of course I explained what’s going on with me right now. I am not sure he gets how broken I was, or am, but he fixes things. I know he will fix me, if I am broken… he would fix me.
So, I know this is not a cheerful way to deliver a happy news, but this calm and peaceful kind of happiness which some of you might question is something that I might need right now. So if you ask me why? I’d ask you back… why not?